The human spirit needs places where nature has not been rearranged by the hand of man.

It is terrible how we spend so much of our lives feeling sad or bad or simply not good enough. In the desire to be something more than what we are, we lose who we really are and in some ways, that is the biggest tragedy. How we can turn a blind eye to the things that are rotting inside of us; the things we could have saved if we had paused to look for them, those cracks that could have been closed. It is the losses that we do not see; they are the ones that affect us the most because we do not mourn for them. 

I’ve seen men lose themselves to whisky and women standing on street corners and idealisms inside of me expect to see something in their eyes. Something that is sad or striving but there is no expression in the lines of their faces. And that is the single worst thing, to look into the face of someone and see absolutely nothing at all. Ghosts, I think, make a person and when those pieces of you are not present, then what else is there to go on for? Most days I want to shake people until their bones rattle inside of their skin and something rattles inside of them and falls into place and makes them realize that maybe somehow, they can regain the lost pieces of themselves. Some human beings are like old buildings; there are parts of them that are frayed and crumbling, but they are not completely gone. I want to remind them that nothing is truly ever lost, not really. And I need to believe in that. I need to believe that people can be saved because if I do not believe, then there is nothing else I can put faith in.

Cat napping.
Cat napping.

Cat napping.

Last week, I adopted a 2 month old orange tabby kitten from the SPCA. His name is Jack and he loves playing and cuddles. :)
Last week, I adopted a 2 month old orange tabby kitten from the SPCA. His name is Jack and he loves playing and cuddles. :)

Last week, I adopted a 2 month old orange tabby kitten from the SPCA. His name is Jack and he loves playing and cuddles. :)

Do not waste time looking back and regretting what happened - look forward and begin making things happen. That is the first step to creating a better, more fulfilling reality.

mstrkrftz:

Dream Land
Giuseppe Chiauzzi

So beautiful!
mstrkrftz:

Dream Land
Giuseppe Chiauzzi

So beautiful!

Mindfulness Meditation

Recently, I purchased the book, “Mindfulness: An Eight-Week Plan for Finding Peace in a Frantic World,” which provides instruction on mindfulness meditation. If you are unfamiliar with this form of meditation, mindfulness has been extensively studied by the scientific and medical communities. Many reputable studies have shown that patients with severe anxiety or depression, who practiced correct mindfulness meditation over a period of 2-3 months, showed significant improvement in their mentality, mood, and outlook upon life. In order to confirm the improvement and rule out a placebo effect, scientists used functional MRI (fMRI) to determine if particular regions of the brain showed any changes. The results indicated that the insula region was significantly more active in patients that practiced mindfulness meditation for 3 months. This means that the patient was better able to feel a heightened sense empathy and belonging, as opposed to before meditation was implemented. The studies also demonstrated that if practiced correctly, mindfulness meditation was just as effective as antidepressant medications. It has also been proven that mindfulness meditation is beneficial as a preventative treatment for those who have recurring episodes of anxiety and depression. 

For the past year, I have been performing basic breathing/body mindfulness meditation exercises on a daily basis. Last year, I wrote a research paper in my Biochemistry II class in which I discussed the short and long term benefits of this meditation in comparison to antidepressants. Since then, I have been quite intrigued with it and began practicing it to improve my mentality and to focus more on the present, rather than the past or future. After 3 months of 30 minute, daily exercises, I found that it did indeed improve my mental wellbeing and I found myself taking moments to appreciate and savor the small, everyday pleasures of life. 

Now, with the guidance of this book, I will be tackling the more extensive exercises over an 8 week period. I just thought I would share my experience with this meditation technique so that others may try it for themselves. I hope you at least look into what it’s about, because it is beneficial for every mind and soul.

Here is a link to free meditation tutorials provided by UCLA Health.

Note: This is actually not pseudoscience. It is a credible, scientific technique. 

I was once told that the only source writing needs, is creativity; that every creative person is able to write poetry or short stories or songs, in any possible way. I have nothing to offer against this theory - indeed, they are able to write. But what no one seems to notice, is that their writing will never be honest, in any possible way. True writing can never be written down or spoken out or played by only creative people. 

Writing comes with apathy. 
Writing comes with sadness. 
Writing comes with wonder. 
Writing comes with loss. 
-always trust in this.

    No matter where I go, I always find myself on my own.

It takes a lot of nerve to destroy this wondrous Earth.

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that’s all."
"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that’s all."

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that’s all."

If we don’t change, we don’t grow. If we don’t grow, we aren’t really living.

Take Time for Appreciation

The first person who saw your face was delighted by you. Isn’t that something? You managed to bring joy only by breathing. 
Your mother will occasionally peek through the cracks of your door when you are sleeping, even now, to make sure that she can see the gentle rise and fall of your chest. 
The boy who kissed you in the park last month is not in love with you, he won’t even stay, but he meant every second of that kiss. 
You’ll walk a city street that your feet have never touched before and you’ll be terrified of getting lost, and that feeling is what will help you find your way home. 
You will give your money to a homeless man and he will hold your hand firmly between his and he will say, “thank you so, so much!” And isn’t that something?
There’s a piece of music that makes your heart feel like it is bleeding while simultaneously giving you goose bumps. Listen to it. Listen to it again. 
When was the last time you paused to stare at the stars in the night sky, or to observe the city night life? 
Did you know that there is at least one person in your life who will jump in front of a hail of bullets for you, without you asking him or her to do so?
Your entire body is made of nerves. You are meant to feel things.
Take walks to places you have never been. 
Take photographs of people whom society does not consider traditionally beautiful. Find the beauty and loveliness in them, for it exists. 
Let go of the things that are killing you from the inside out. 
One day, you are going to be part of the Earth and provide the chemical foundation for new life to grow and develop. You are going to be that beautiful and that essential for the next generation of life, but not today. Not today.